staying strong

i just been having a lot of time to think about many different things that is going on...
i feel as if my head is going to explode and my heart is going to stop.
i feel all these emotions all at once that i cant control my self.

i realized that staying strong is my only choice in life right now.
i have been at the bottom before so staying strong now is nothing. right?
but it seems like this is very hard right now. (prob because im going to boston in a few days and im not sure if i can control myself there)
i hate feeling like im in no control of myself.

i kept thinking. why am i worried over this when that person does not think about me at all.
why am i the only one that is feeling pain right now?
why is it that i care so much?
then i came to a conclusion: its prob because that person doesnt care about me now and never did. i was a fool.

but its a new year and im staring off strong.
even though we will meet that doesnt matter.
even though we will be talking to each other that doesnt matter
i WILL stay strong and will not let my emotions take control of myself

staying strong is going to be hard but i believe that i can do it.
i just have to remember not to think about it too much and think about other things in life that are much more important.