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hey. its been a while.
i see that u are not very happy to see me. why is that?
did i do something to you? did i make you feel uncomfortable? just tell me please.
dont do such things on facebook like getting offline right when i get online or not replying to any of my messages because it really makes me feel horrible about myself.
maybe i did something really wrong and that is why you are being like this.
or maybe you just dont want to be friends anymore so that is why you are ignoring me.
whichever the reason is please just tell me and ill get out of your face right away!
i wont ask any questions or anything. just tell me what is going on.
because, im sorry if im  being annoying, i really dont want to cause anyone discomfort.
so please just reply to this one message and ill never do anything that causes you any trouble.
im sorry if im being egotistical but i really REALLY need to know so ill know how to rearrange my life without you.
please just grant me my last wish.
thanks for staying with me even though you really didnt like me. thank you.
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what have you done for me for the past four months?
you have taken the happiness that i always wanted away from me and now you cause me even more pain. why now?
even though you were never there when i really needed you
even though you never cared for me
even though you did things your way all the time why do you feel like the victim?
i am also a victim here.
what happened to all the promises?
what happened to all of our future plans?
are they all gone?
what happened to being "best friends"?
was that a lie too? did u just say that to make me feel "better" about myself but in the end what you really wanted to say was "lets not see each other again"
do i really make you that bored and unhappy?
i guess i was only one that actually cared for anything and im sorry.
im sorry that i never noticed all of the hints.
im sorry that i made you suffer this boring life with me in it.
but im not going to let you suffer anymore because im going to take myself out of it for you.
however, always know that you will still be in my life even though i am no longer part of yours.
im sorry for everything
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my heart aches...
it aches for the happiness that it should have but it never gets it.
im sorry heart. im sorry that i cannot provide you the happiness that you need. sorry