2010년 12월 31일 금요일
2010년 12월 30일 목요일
2010년 11월 14일 일요일
now
so my first semester of college is almost over and lots of things happened in my life.
i met wonderful people and some not so wonderful people.
i guess its time for me to move on with my old self and start new as a brighter, happier, and nicer person.
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so my life right now is very confusing and complicated......
but im going to solve this problem slowly
i guess im experiencing a "normal college life"
:)
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im super excited to go back to florida for the winter break because i NEED a break from all of the craziness of boston and college
hopefully after i come back ill be refreshed and can function normally like i had in the past
i just NEED A BREAK!!!! AHHHHHHHHH
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AND IM SUPER EXCITED TO SEE KEJING DURING THANKSGIVING BREAK!!!! <3
i met wonderful people and some not so wonderful people.
i guess its time for me to move on with my old self and start new as a brighter, happier, and nicer person.
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so my life right now is very confusing and complicated......
but im going to solve this problem slowly
i guess im experiencing a "normal college life"
:)
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im super excited to go back to florida for the winter break because i NEED a break from all of the craziness of boston and college
hopefully after i come back ill be refreshed and can function normally like i had in the past
i just NEED A BREAK!!!! AHHHHHHHHH
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AND IM SUPER EXCITED TO SEE KEJING DURING THANKSGIVING BREAK!!!! <3
2010년 9월 22일 수요일
#2 college
so college is getting harder and harder as time progresses...
but my personal life is getting better and better as time progresses
the people @church are being AWESOME, unlike the first impression which i think it was bc we were all strangers.
ive been meeting great people and also some not-so-great people
but over all college is doing me justice in this heavy life that im in.
things @church is going awesome. im volunteering as i did all my life(actually ive only been at the church for 3 weeks and new people think that ive been at the church for 3yrs because ive been all over the place!)
my weekend starts with friday night at church for bible study
sat morning (at 5:30) with morning prayer and praise band practice
and sunday morning with CHURCH
(oh yeah and starting tomorrow thurs with choir practice)
now my church life was set, at least the church, my personal like is a place that needs settling down.
i feel more alone these days than usual, even more now than i was when i first came here. i see people going home, talking to their high school friends on campus, family visiting, and all kinds of things that i can't do right now. (i even see some CCs[campus couples] running around all over the place) i feel that i need a place where i can depend as a family, as a loving person, as a secure place..... i guess ill find THAT person soon but i need him fast...
haha funny story!
so i was working out at the gym and, being me, i was lifting weights after my running machine time! and some creeper came up to me saying "u come here often?" what was that about?? and he was in the engineering school too... =.= then some other creeper at school is trying to get all friendly with me. NO thats not possible! AH sooooo many creepers at school!!!
thats my life so far...
ill update later if i have time
but my personal life is getting better and better as time progresses
the people @church are being AWESOME, unlike the first impression which i think it was bc we were all strangers.
ive been meeting great people and also some not-so-great people
but over all college is doing me justice in this heavy life that im in.
things @church is going awesome. im volunteering as i did all my life(actually ive only been at the church for 3 weeks and new people think that ive been at the church for 3yrs because ive been all over the place!)
my weekend starts with friday night at church for bible study
sat morning (at 5:30) with morning prayer and praise band practice
and sunday morning with CHURCH
(oh yeah and starting tomorrow thurs with choir practice)
now my church life was set, at least the church, my personal like is a place that needs settling down.
i feel more alone these days than usual, even more now than i was when i first came here. i see people going home, talking to their high school friends on campus, family visiting, and all kinds of things that i can't do right now. (i even see some CCs[campus couples] running around all over the place) i feel that i need a place where i can depend as a family, as a loving person, as a secure place..... i guess ill find THAT person soon but i need him fast...
haha funny story!
so i was working out at the gym and, being me, i was lifting weights after my running machine time! and some creeper came up to me saying "u come here often?" what was that about?? and he was in the engineering school too... =.= then some other creeper at school is trying to get all friendly with me. NO thats not possible! AH sooooo many creepers at school!!!
thats my life so far...
ill update later if i have time
2010년 9월 6일 월요일
life so far
this is my first blog in a long time.... wow.... i feel sooo lazy
life in boston is pretty good so far. my roomies are nice, ppl here are nice, and i think im going to love this place as soon as i get used to it.
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i went to church yesterday for the first time by my self. i felt scared, confused, and foreign to it bc it wasnt my DAD's church. people there was pretty nice and they got me in to a bible study group really fast. the church is in Cambridge so i have to commute a little but i like it bc it gives me time to relax and get ready for the service. the church has around 200-300 college students and so its not a small size that im dealing with right now and i felt so lost bc i didnt know anyone and it seemed like everyone was friends and excited to see each other. when the main service and the student service was over we had a bible study group meeting and it was soooo weird bc no one was talking. so we went out for coffee, like most korean church kids would do on a sunday afternoon after church, and we started talking, actually THEY did and i kept quiet. and right off of that everyone was talking and laughing and having a good time while i just watched them. i felt out of the loop bc they had their friends with them and they all knew each other stuff like that.
so after that i volunteered to be in the praise band bc i wanted to serve like i have for the past 18 years of my life and that wasnt going to change just because i went to college. but when i asked the leader looked at me and said that "well.... the kid(next to me) volunteered first so i dont know whats going to happen but u can show up to practice and we'll see about that" and i guess i felt discouraged and unwanted. but i stood up for my self and kept reminding my self that what im going to do is for him and not for the people so i shouldnt worry about what others say about me. and so after all of that our group was going to go to noraebang together at night and so i was waiting in my dorm for a text, a call, or anything to tell me when we are going to meet. it never came. there was no phone call, text, or anything till 11 that night. and they said "sorry, i thought u were with everyone else so i forgot to call u. my bad" and that was it.
i felt really sad but my personality didnt let me be sad bc i reminded my self that 'whatever. whatever they do they do and what i do i do so dont worry about it bc u have better things to do in boston than going to play at night' so that is what i did. i went up to my dorm and read the bible and prayed. prayed for straight to fight, knowledge to succeed, confidence to believe in myself as well as by family in florida, and faith so i can become a better christ follower than yesterday and the day before that. i prayed for the unconditional love that he has over me and so one day i can give that love to people around me with out judging and pointing fingers. i prayed for my health and my family's health. as well as the church that i went to so that it can grow and become a better place for students in the boston area to feel welcomed in to.
i decided that i cant fool around anymore. i MUST become a better person with a brand new attitude, mind set, and a new goal: to farther my relationship with him more than anything in the world. so because of that im planning to go to the early services at the church to start my day with the word and to feel loved by him even more that i am now. and i believe through that i can succeed in anything i want. and so staring this sat im going to go to the morning service at 6:30 and go to the praise band practice at 8:30 and just pray and try to live in the word so that i can become a better person in his eyes, in my eyes, and also in the eyes of others around me.
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as i stated before, i believe that the school has TOO many koreans. and i felt really bad bc starting on the first day all the koreans were only hanging out with the other koreans and everyone stared at us really weird. bc all of them are FOBs and i was more of a twinky i felt out of place and i didnt belong there. but if i dont go with them i had no other "friends" in college bc my roomies had other friends to hang out with. and so when ever we had a meeting, a lesson, or at lunch all of the koreans were together and i could feel the stares of others onto us and it felt as if we had a hole on our foreheads or signs saying "look at us we are only going to hang out with our ppl bc we dont like anyone but us"
i think its time for me to become a true twinky again. not because i dont like the koreans but because i dont want to be the one to get kicked out bc im hanging out with the party koreans, which most of them seem to be, and im here to study so that is what im going to do.
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all of my roomies are awesome! they are so nice to me and makes me feel safe and secure here in boston. the one thing that i am very sorry to them is that i dont really like to hang out with ppl that much or as much as "normal" people seemed to be capable of doing. and i feel really bad about this bc i AM such a nonsocial person and i am very boring and annoying that i feel soooooooo so bad about it. i hope in the future they will forgive me bc it is hard to change my personality from nonsocial to social. but other than that i think we are good. they do go out every night but that is what college is about. just going out and hanging out with friends, something i cant do. i hope in the future they will get to understand that this is my personality and i dont hate them or something bc they are REALLY nice.
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so to sun it all up, college is going to be interesting but when, or if, i make some new non-korean friends i feel like its going to be better than now. so my goals for this year until graduation is as follows
1) become a better christ follower and so that in the future when people sees me they can see him through me
2) do well in school. bc the tuition here are super expensive i HAVE to do well and support my family when i get out.
3) graduate in 2016 with honors. this goes with the second one.
4) make some, notice i didnt say a lot, of good friends and will support me and help me through this journey
5) to realize who i am and how to journey will make of who i am in the future.
6) if possible, to find someone that will support me in what ever i do for me. someone that will be more than a friend to me. someone closer.
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i think this has been the longest post that i had... wow....
ill try to write more to those who are reading but this is mostly where i can talk freely and really show my true self that no one had seen. yay college...
life in boston is pretty good so far. my roomies are nice, ppl here are nice, and i think im going to love this place as soon as i get used to it.
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i went to church yesterday for the first time by my self. i felt scared, confused, and foreign to it bc it wasnt my DAD's church. people there was pretty nice and they got me in to a bible study group really fast. the church is in Cambridge so i have to commute a little but i like it bc it gives me time to relax and get ready for the service. the church has around 200-300 college students and so its not a small size that im dealing with right now and i felt so lost bc i didnt know anyone and it seemed like everyone was friends and excited to see each other. when the main service and the student service was over we had a bible study group meeting and it was soooo weird bc no one was talking. so we went out for coffee, like most korean church kids would do on a sunday afternoon after church, and we started talking, actually THEY did and i kept quiet. and right off of that everyone was talking and laughing and having a good time while i just watched them. i felt out of the loop bc they had their friends with them and they all knew each other stuff like that.
so after that i volunteered to be in the praise band bc i wanted to serve like i have for the past 18 years of my life and that wasnt going to change just because i went to college. but when i asked the leader looked at me and said that "well.... the kid(next to me) volunteered first so i dont know whats going to happen but u can show up to practice and we'll see about that" and i guess i felt discouraged and unwanted. but i stood up for my self and kept reminding my self that what im going to do is for him and not for the people so i shouldnt worry about what others say about me. and so after all of that our group was going to go to noraebang together at night and so i was waiting in my dorm for a text, a call, or anything to tell me when we are going to meet. it never came. there was no phone call, text, or anything till 11 that night. and they said "sorry, i thought u were with everyone else so i forgot to call u. my bad" and that was it.
i felt really sad but my personality didnt let me be sad bc i reminded my self that 'whatever. whatever they do they do and what i do i do so dont worry about it bc u have better things to do in boston than going to play at night' so that is what i did. i went up to my dorm and read the bible and prayed. prayed for straight to fight, knowledge to succeed, confidence to believe in myself as well as by family in florida, and faith so i can become a better christ follower than yesterday and the day before that. i prayed for the unconditional love that he has over me and so one day i can give that love to people around me with out judging and pointing fingers. i prayed for my health and my family's health. as well as the church that i went to so that it can grow and become a better place for students in the boston area to feel welcomed in to.
i decided that i cant fool around anymore. i MUST become a better person with a brand new attitude, mind set, and a new goal: to farther my relationship with him more than anything in the world. so because of that im planning to go to the early services at the church to start my day with the word and to feel loved by him even more that i am now. and i believe through that i can succeed in anything i want. and so staring this sat im going to go to the morning service at 6:30 and go to the praise band practice at 8:30 and just pray and try to live in the word so that i can become a better person in his eyes, in my eyes, and also in the eyes of others around me.
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as i stated before, i believe that the school has TOO many koreans. and i felt really bad bc starting on the first day all the koreans were only hanging out with the other koreans and everyone stared at us really weird. bc all of them are FOBs and i was more of a twinky i felt out of place and i didnt belong there. but if i dont go with them i had no other "friends" in college bc my roomies had other friends to hang out with. and so when ever we had a meeting, a lesson, or at lunch all of the koreans were together and i could feel the stares of others onto us and it felt as if we had a hole on our foreheads or signs saying "look at us we are only going to hang out with our ppl bc we dont like anyone but us"
i think its time for me to become a true twinky again. not because i dont like the koreans but because i dont want to be the one to get kicked out bc im hanging out with the party koreans, which most of them seem to be, and im here to study so that is what im going to do.
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all of my roomies are awesome! they are so nice to me and makes me feel safe and secure here in boston. the one thing that i am very sorry to them is that i dont really like to hang out with ppl that much or as much as "normal" people seemed to be capable of doing. and i feel really bad about this bc i AM such a nonsocial person and i am very boring and annoying that i feel soooooooo so bad about it. i hope in the future they will forgive me bc it is hard to change my personality from nonsocial to social. but other than that i think we are good. they do go out every night but that is what college is about. just going out and hanging out with friends, something i cant do. i hope in the future they will get to understand that this is my personality and i dont hate them or something bc they are REALLY nice.
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so to sun it all up, college is going to be interesting but when, or if, i make some new non-korean friends i feel like its going to be better than now. so my goals for this year until graduation is as follows
1) become a better christ follower and so that in the future when people sees me they can see him through me
2) do well in school. bc the tuition here are super expensive i HAVE to do well and support my family when i get out.
3) graduate in 2016 with honors. this goes with the second one.
4) make some, notice i didnt say a lot, of good friends and will support me and help me through this journey
5) to realize who i am and how to journey will make of who i am in the future.
6) if possible, to find someone that will support me in what ever i do for me. someone that will be more than a friend to me. someone closer.
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i think this has been the longest post that i had... wow....
ill try to write more to those who are reading but this is mostly where i can talk freely and really show my true self that no one had seen. yay college...
2010년 6월 23일 수요일
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wow.... its been so long since my last post....
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well this is my first post since i got to korea! its been 9 yrs since i came here and everything changed....
so many memories... so much love...
many things happened, like the world cup and how we made it in to the round of 16!! woop!
i just felt like what i was in the past... feeling nothing and be fine with it...
no love, compassion, pain, ect...
feeling numb all the time...
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the doctor told me that my health isnt the best right now but its not horrible... i guess thats a good thing....
i guess i have to start caring for my self because ill be all alone in boston in a few weeks and so i dont want my dad to worry about my health.... (wait i take the pain thing back because i am in pain right now bc of my stupid unhealthy body...)
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i guess the time that i have with people are slowly and slowly decreasing...
the people in korea.... (whom ill prob see again when i get married....[or "if" as my brother says])
the people in tallahassee... (whom i dont know when ill see them again after i leave bc idk about when, or if, i can come back down)
the people in my heart... (that is numb right now and i need somebody to help me un-numb it...)
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TIME....
such a short and small word that means so many things...
it is only time that heals a broken heart....
it is only time that keeps going....
time.... time...
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i know our time is limited but i hope we can make the best of it together....
hand-in-hand
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i just realized that this was a very long and depressing post....
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well this is my first post since i got to korea! its been 9 yrs since i came here and everything changed....
so many memories... so much love...
many things happened, like the world cup and how we made it in to the round of 16!! woop!
i just felt like what i was in the past... feeling nothing and be fine with it...
no love, compassion, pain, ect...
feeling numb all the time...
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the doctor told me that my health isnt the best right now but its not horrible... i guess thats a good thing....
i guess i have to start caring for my self because ill be all alone in boston in a few weeks and so i dont want my dad to worry about my health.... (wait i take the pain thing back because i am in pain right now bc of my stupid unhealthy body...)
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i guess the time that i have with people are slowly and slowly decreasing...
the people in korea.... (whom ill prob see again when i get married....[or "if" as my brother says])
the people in tallahassee... (whom i dont know when ill see them again after i leave bc idk about when, or if, i can come back down)
the people in my heart... (that is numb right now and i need somebody to help me un-numb it...)
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TIME....
such a short and small word that means so many things...
it is only time that heals a broken heart....
it is only time that keeps going....
time.... time...
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i know our time is limited but i hope we can make the best of it together....
hand-in-hand
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i just realized that this was a very long and depressing post....
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2010년 6월 10일 목요일
wow so korea
ok so im in korea and everything is pretty awesome... except for the fact that i cant get on my actual fb account and that there are too many temptations everywhere!!
its pretty ok and there are soooooo many guys!!! OMG vicky, katelyn, and kejing will like it here!!! =]
but i do feel that i am too tall bc all of my family is REALLY small and stuff... =_=
i went to the hospital today and it doesnt look good.....
its pretty ok and there are soooooo many guys!!! OMG vicky, katelyn, and kejing will like it here!!! =]
but i do feel that i am too tall bc all of my family is REALLY small and stuff... =_=
i went to the hospital today and it doesnt look good.....
2010년 5월 11일 화요일
something different
today my blog is about a different topic... its about the bible!!! yay!!! =]
i realized today that sooooooo many ppl have John 3:16 as their fav verse of the bible... but why john 3:16?? why ONLY john 3:16?
[it says "For God so loved the world that he gave his only Son, so that everyone who believes in him may not perish nut may have eternal life."]
i love this verse and all but the bible isnt all about this... yes it is important to accept christ as your savior but there are so many other great verses in the bible!!
the bible isnt only about being saved, it more than that! its about how to live your life as a christian and if u are a non believer how the christianity came about. its a history book, a bed time story book, life guideline book, and its the world of God.
i think that ppl should look more in to the bible than just john 3:16.
the bible isnt always so loving and having eternal life. it has things like what christians should act in church, about judgement, the ugly side of christianity, and how ugly a christian's life will be and should be.
so lets find other verses to represent us!
few of my favs!
1) But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us- Romans 5:8
2) Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name given under heaven by which we must be saved- Acts 4:12
3) Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.- Matthew 11:28
4) I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God that brings salvation to everyone who believes: first to the Jew, then to the Gentile.- Romans 1:16
5) For, "Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved."- Romans 10:13
6) Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free- John 8:32
7) For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart- Hebrews 4:12
8) The wrath of God is being revealed from heaven against all the godlessness and wickedness of human beings who suppress the truth by their wickedness- Romans 1:18
i realized today that sooooooo many ppl have John 3:16 as their fav verse of the bible... but why john 3:16?? why ONLY john 3:16?
[it says "For God so loved the world that he gave his only Son, so that everyone who believes in him may not perish nut may have eternal life."]
i love this verse and all but the bible isnt all about this... yes it is important to accept christ as your savior but there are so many other great verses in the bible!!
the bible isnt only about being saved, it more than that! its about how to live your life as a christian and if u are a non believer how the christianity came about. its a history book, a bed time story book, life guideline book, and its the world of God.
i think that ppl should look more in to the bible than just john 3:16.
the bible isnt always so loving and having eternal life. it has things like what christians should act in church, about judgement, the ugly side of christianity, and how ugly a christian's life will be and should be.
so lets find other verses to represent us!
few of my favs!
1) But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us- Romans 5:8
2) Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name given under heaven by which we must be saved- Acts 4:12
3) Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.- Matthew 11:28
4) I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God that brings salvation to everyone who believes: first to the Jew, then to the Gentile.- Romans 1:16
5) For, "Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved."- Romans 10:13
6) Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free- John 8:32
7) For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart- Hebrews 4:12
8) The wrath of God is being revealed from heaven against all the godlessness and wickedness of human beings who suppress the truth by their wickedness- Romans 1:18
2010년 4월 27일 화요일
emotions
what ARE emotions...?
what is the feeling of being happy, sad, in love, depressed, ...
what are they?
i do not know the answers because there is no emotion in me...
i cannot feel emotions anymore... why is this? whats happening to me?
i live everyday just living... but where are the emotions that embraced me so nights ago?
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that is what i felt like a few days ago...
but i found one emotion that is trying to force it self in... this was the emotion that i havent felt in years... the emotion of ______. why is my heart going "pit-pat"? why is this happening?
it shouldnt be doing it! it cant do it! but why is that the emotion came back so recently? this feeling that shouldnt be there is keeping me up in the nights and keeping alert during the day.... why... this strange feeling is taking me over like a drug... a drug to an ex-drug addict...
drug that i should not take... but why is it that im enjoying this drug... why...?
what is the feeling of being happy, sad, in love, depressed, ...
what are they?
i do not know the answers because there is no emotion in me...
i cannot feel emotions anymore... why is this? whats happening to me?
i live everyday just living... but where are the emotions that embraced me so nights ago?
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that is what i felt like a few days ago...
but i found one emotion that is trying to force it self in... this was the emotion that i havent felt in years... the emotion of ______. why is my heart going "pit-pat"? why is this happening?
it shouldnt be doing it! it cant do it! but why is that the emotion came back so recently? this feeling that shouldnt be there is keeping me up in the nights and keeping alert during the day.... why... this strange feeling is taking me over like a drug... a drug to an ex-drug addict...
drug that i should not take... but why is it that im enjoying this drug... why...?
2010년 4월 10일 토요일
our limited time
wow... its already middle of april... we are already down to our final weeks together and its going to be very das when everyone is going to different places...(ok mostly uf but still)
i guess that its just me that is thinking about stuff like this... wanting to hang out more while we can, wanting to talk more to others, wanting to make more memories, wanting to...
even tough some say that we have time later to hang out i feel sad BECAUSE i wont be here, BECAUSE i cant do things like that, BECAUSE...
i also wished that some friends WOULD keep in touch, even now, and not just act friendly @ school, because we will NEVER be able to keep in touch after high school.
sometimes i wonder if we ARE still going to be friends after we leave each other... sometimes i wonder if my 'friends" are my real friends
sometimes i wonder if in ten years we can still talk and have a good time like we do now
sometimes i wonder if i never came down to tallahassee, fl ever again... if some one will miss me
sometimes i wonder do my friends WANT to keep in touch or am i trying too hard when they dont want to...
sometimes i wonder if they really care about me...
sometimes i wonder...
i guess me trying to open myself to people are failing... something that i tried so hard to do... opening a closed heart to people... because i was hurt before... opening something so dear and important to me... i thought doing this will help me and others as well... i guess i was just being too annoying...
because our end is near i must thank all of my friends, who may not even consider me as important as i consider them, of the things they done for me that they cant even wonder how much it effected me in the hardest times... in my darkest hours... thank you so much
lets enjoy our limited time together!!
i guess that its just me that is thinking about stuff like this... wanting to hang out more while we can, wanting to talk more to others, wanting to make more memories, wanting to...
even tough some say that we have time later to hang out i feel sad BECAUSE i wont be here, BECAUSE i cant do things like that, BECAUSE...
i also wished that some friends WOULD keep in touch, even now, and not just act friendly @ school, because we will NEVER be able to keep in touch after high school.
sometimes i wonder if we ARE still going to be friends after we leave each other... sometimes i wonder if my 'friends" are my real friends
sometimes i wonder if in ten years we can still talk and have a good time like we do now
sometimes i wonder if i never came down to tallahassee, fl ever again... if some one will miss me
sometimes i wonder do my friends WANT to keep in touch or am i trying too hard when they dont want to...
sometimes i wonder if they really care about me...
sometimes i wonder...
i guess me trying to open myself to people are failing... something that i tried so hard to do... opening a closed heart to people... because i was hurt before... opening something so dear and important to me... i thought doing this will help me and others as well... i guess i was just being too annoying...
because our end is near i must thank all of my friends, who may not even consider me as important as i consider them, of the things they done for me that they cant even wonder how much it effected me in the hardest times... in my darkest hours... thank you so much
lets enjoy our limited time together!!
2010년 3월 31일 수요일
my worries
yesterday i cried... not because of me nor my family but because i finally understand the pain that others go through (even if i dont know them).
i read a news article yesterday about a korean celeb that committed suicide after his sister did a year and a half a go. i was really sad because i knew what he was going through, all the depressed days and the hardships. but i realized even if i was so sad for him that i, unlike him, is going to get "over" things and try to live my life to its best and that because God was there that i can get through it. Even though he was also a christian i think he just gave up... something i would never do.
i recently gotten really excited for prom... but also very sad...
i keep remembering and thinking that last year my mom really wanted me to go to prom but i just didnt... i regret it...
but this year im going and it'll be lots of fun because i have my friends there with me!! (even though some of my best friends aren't going)
i read a news article yesterday about a korean celeb that committed suicide after his sister did a year and a half a go. i was really sad because i knew what he was going through, all the depressed days and the hardships. but i realized even if i was so sad for him that i, unlike him, is going to get "over" things and try to live my life to its best and that because God was there that i can get through it. Even though he was also a christian i think he just gave up... something i would never do.
i recently gotten really excited for prom... but also very sad...
i keep remembering and thinking that last year my mom really wanted me to go to prom but i just didnt... i regret it...
but this year im going and it'll be lots of fun because i have my friends there with me!! (even though some of my best friends aren't going)
2010년 3월 4일 목요일
forever
wow its been forever since i wrote on here...
well i made a facebook again.... =_=
i dont know if it is a good thing or not...
*right now my up stairs neighbors are really loud and i just want to go up and tell them to shutup!!*
i have recently tried to change my study habits because my dad is worried that i wont be able to study well when i go to MCPHS... he worries too much.
i guess ill try and write more... =D
well i made a facebook again.... =_=
i dont know if it is a good thing or not...
*right now my up stairs neighbors are really loud and i just want to go up and tell them to shutup!!*
i have recently tried to change my study habits because my dad is worried that i wont be able to study well when i go to MCPHS... he worries too much.
i guess ill try and write more... =D
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