I guess i'm just ____________.

1) I guess i'm just annoying.- i felt like this because i was always trying to act "happy" that i prob gotten a little annoying to others around me and so they prob ignore me as much as possible. and i agree. I'm not fun to be with... I just get in to other people's business and try to find out about the other person as much as possible so i can help them. but i guess that "helping" them was a bad idea... because people DO get tired of me and I'm also getting tired of my self. So i guess if i AM going to MCPHS in Boston it would be a good chance to change my self to be less annoying.
2) I guess i'm just lonely.- I've been getting that a lot. that, going with #1, im just a character that makes others tired and so i feel lonely all the time. maybe its because most of my friends has their best friends that they can talk to or they have their own boy/girlfriend and so they dont need to talk to me. i feel like fall brings out all the loneliness in a person. i want to go out with my friends, have someone that i can depend on, and just be really happy... but maybe that is a wild dream that can never be achieved.
3) I guess i'm just over looking at friendships- i wrote in my phone that "I think it is so amazing that friendships of many years are next to nothing, but friendships that i made at a little summer camp lasts a life time... but i guess this is life. friendships are nothing but a fake smile on the face. waiting to betray you. waiting to devour you when it is time to say 'goodbye'. and when that time comes what will i do? will i cry? be happy? confused? what will the other person say? would THEY be sad? happy? confused? OR would they laugh at me because i take things too literal? what would happen to me when that time comes?" And i think i what wrote on my phone is true in come cases. some friendships are made to last long but others just fail. maybe that is why no one wants to be with me... maybe i'm just a terrible friend...
4) i guess i'm just ____________________.- now you fill out this part!! what do you think about me??